Lifestyle change sounds so much better than diet and exercise. I’ve been having thyroid and adrenal problems for a few years. A year ago I was put on bio-identical hormone therapy and it really took the edge off of some really terrible problems but without fixing the thyroid problem, I still battle going from 100 to 150 in just a few months and can’t lose weight without cutting down to about 600 calories a day. You can only imagine how restricting this is. On top of that I was trying to go back to running and found that with my allergies I’ve developed in Kansas I have exercise induced asthma. I had experienced cold induced asthma when running as a teen in Washington but never this constant inability to control my breathing. My doctor prescribed albuterol tablets and I also now take singulair at night. The weather at the moment is not conducive to running especially not with cold induced, exercise induced asthma so I am considering using my elliptical again. I prefer to use it without others around but if I’m home so is everyone else and the thought of getting up at 5 am is frightening to this non-morning person. I have to admit I am afraid to weigh myself because I have a feeling I will see a number higher than any other time and the depression might send me to the comfort foods. I used to weigh myself daily, my highest number was 149 and I cried then. I was able to get to 125 by starving myself but it took no time at all for all of that and then some to come back. It’s time to do something and I’m spending a lot of time reading books (YOU, on a diet; The ‘What they don’t want you to know’ books, and many others) some have principles they share while others totally negate what the others say. I am trying to desperately work through the hype and find the solid principles. I am considering a body flush to start off with a bang. I may wait to weigh myself until after this so that things don’t look quite as bleak.
My other pet project is finishing my bachelor’s degree. I am ready to bite the bullet and tighten our belts so I can finish school. I just hope everyone else is. I won’t be able to work as much and we are barely making it as it is. I had one semester of my BSN left (I was half way through that semester) when my pregnancy caused some problems that forced me to withdraw from school. One more child later and both in school now and I need to return. I don’t know how much of a setback the 9 years will cause but it’s time to finish school. I am intrigued by the idea of making money without working for others and wonder if there is a way of using my nursing knowledge in a blog. I’m going to download some pod-casts about making money on-line and listen to them while I perform the daily drudgery of my job. I work for a company that handles investments, 401Ks etc. I spend my whole day looking for .0003 cents ugggggg. Time to go check the cupboards and see if there is anything I can eat in them and get a shopping list going so I don’t resort to those foods I shouldn’t eat. A different kind of convenience food needs to be available but first a peek and a few of my books to see what those foods are.
